Skinny chicks and dicks and tits and shit.

I’m in such a fucking bad mood right now. I’m having an ‘angry at the world’ moment.

I’m mad at my mom because she is holding a grudge. I’m mad at myself for acting out in my eating disorder. I’m mad at thinspo blogs for glamorizing the hell I go through every day. I’m mad at myself for being sexually abused. I’m mad that I’m mad at myself for it. I’m mad at misogyny. I’m mad that I could turn on my tv right fucking now, and I’d probably find atleast one rape scene on some channel in the next hour. A rape scene for no good reason, just to tear down a woman, just for shock value. I’m mad that I can’t find a job. I’m mad that the National Defense Authorization Act exists. I’m mad that police abuse their power ever day. I’m mad that people I love are hurting and I don’t know what to do about it.

I think i’ll start using this Tumblr more.

I had a pretty good day. My therapist says I need to figure what kind of guys/girls I’m into, and to start exploring my confident and ”sexy” side. Yeah, I about died laughing at that last part. Anyway, I did lots of people watching. I noticed there is a cute guy in my Employment Skills class. I talked to one girl before class, and I even told some random girl her hair was nice, because I’m supposed to be making friends.

Another week, another identity crisis.

This year, I am Thankful for the ability to step back and acknowledge that my needs will not be met by these people around me, my “family”, and that I don’t have to seek validation from them.

my goals for 2012 are to lose weight and not kill myself

(via vampirevoodoo)